Sweet dreams.

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When I was in college, I was blessed with many amazing roommates and friends.  Many of you may remember Becca.  She is so wonderful and I am SO EXCITED for this weekend…we are packing up the family and driving up to DC to see her and her family.  Her sister(and another one of my dearest roommates) is coming from Pittsburgh to be with us this weekend too!  I can hardly wait.  

Becca came from DC to sing at my wedding reception and she has a beautiful voice and plays the guitar with it!  She is awesome!  When we were roommates, we would often just sit on the bed and she would play the guitar and sing as I relaxed and listened.  One of my {many} favorites that she would sing was a song by the Dixie Chicks called, “Godspeed.”  I remember one day, I just laid on her bed and cried.  It is a lullaby for a little boy and the reason I cried was because I felt like I was SO READY to be married and to have children.  I felt a distinct impression that day that I would have a boy first.  

After we found out Bekkett was a boy, I called her up and asked her what that song was she would always sing and I started learning it and memorizing it for my little man.  I have sang that song to Bekkett many times, both before he was born and MANY MANY times since, but tonight was different.  

Recently, he has wanted his little giraffe lamp {from Thailand} turned on…don’t know if he is afraid of the dark or what.  But, tonight I could see him watching me as I sang to him.  I ran my fingers through his short, blonde hair, and watched the little twinkle in his eye as I sang him his lullaby.  Tears welled in my eyes as I closed the song, “God bless mommy and matchbox cars.  God bless daddy, and thanks for the stars.  GOD HEARS AMEN, WHEREVER YOU ARE!  And I love you…”  

That boy has stolen my heart so many times, I can’t even count.  And he continues to do so multiple times a day.  I will never tire of thanking my Father for sending that boy into my life and for making me a mommy.  It is the BEST, hardest, most rewarding job I could have enlisted in.  And I am so grateful every day that I did.  

Now for finding the perfect lullaby for my Des girl.  Any perfect ones that you sing to your girls {Besides the obvious Angel Friends, I Am a Child of God, You Can Close Your Eyes, etc. which are already house favorites.}

Godspeed Lyrics
Dragon tales and the “water is wide”
Pirate’s sail and lost boys fly
Fish bite moonbeams every night
And I love you

Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams

The rocket racer’s all tuckered out
Superman’s in pajamas on the couch
Goodnight moon, will find the mouse
And I love you

Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams

God bless mommy and match box cars
God bless dad and thanks for the stars
God hears “Amen,” wherever we are
And I love you

Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Godspeed
Godspeed
Sweet dreams

-M.

Stretching

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Ya gotta love getting both kids in bed before 8:00 pm on a Sunday. Looks like this calls for a bubble bath and time to shave my legs. {Yes, I have to set apart time to shave my legs, I hate it so bad!} But, before I do that, I just want to share some things that I have learned in the last week.
•Sometimes life doesn’t go as planned. We can either sit down and cry(as I have done many times), or we can try and figure out what we are supposed to learn from it.
•Heavenly Father teaches me in some of the most unpredictable ways. This week it was through the Young Women’s lesson I was asked to teach about fasting. Let me tell you, my testimony of fasting has grown so much in the last week and it was just because of studying about it. I can’t wait to see what happens as I out it into action!
•He has a plan for each of us. I must be grateful for what He already has given my family and me and also be grateful for what He has in store for us.
•Gratitude, in and of itself, can change our hearts from despair and doubt, to a light and peaceful heart. May I ever show my gratitude instead of just always asking for things!
Anyways, I think that’s about it. I will write more as I think of it. But I truly am grateful for times that The Lord stretches me. It is when I am out of my comfort zone that I learn the most, and He knows that! I am glad I am realizing it too!
-M.

Passing time.

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The last couple of evenings before G went on the trail, we made our way to Fletcher Park and enjoyed time there. All of the fall sports are underway, so we were able to walk around the walking trail, Bekkett rode his bike, and Des just enjoyed. So pretty much every night this week, we have made our way to the park. It is so nice to be in the crisp air, the smells, watch little league football, and hear the crunching leaves(one of my absolute FAVORITE things about fall).

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Then last night our friend/”family out here” Jen Soliai, invited us to go to the ball park in Hendersonville to watch her boys play baseball. It was really nice to be with a family on a Friday night instead of us alone.

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Love time with friends, outside. We also went for a walk with our friends Cheryl and her son Andrew the other day. A photo with the boys and their bikes.

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And a couple of daily occurrences. Brother sure loves sister!

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And last but not least… I will first clarify that I love being a mama to a boy. I find his toys in some of the greatest places… Most of the time, I find his Garbonzo the monkey, baby, {and/or} blanky in my bed. But once in a while, I find hot wheels. This is what I found tonight:

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RandiJo and Jessica said they thought of Toy Story when the toys are looking out the window. I hadn’t thought of it that way, but LOVE that thought! I thought that I had one sweet little man putting up some guard dinos so that mama was protected while I sleep alone at night! Either way, it reminded me that I am the luckiest! And that’s all that matters!!
-M.

Going-On-The-Trail Eve: Take #3.

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This week was full of fun, having Greg off of the trail, but to top off the week, we spent the early afternoon at the apple orchards and pumpkin patches of Hendersonville.  I have LOTS of pictures, so enjoy! 🙂
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My two cheesing boys.
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Bekkett has finally starting cheesing for me again and I LOVE IT!Image

Riding in the wagon.  HE LOVED riding in the wagon!  And he LOVED picking the apples off the trees and also just biting into any apple he could find.  Luckily he didn’t find any worms! 😉
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LOVE this pic of G and B!
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He loved testing the apples to see what kinds we wanted to pick.
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I got to carry this little nugget.  She had fallen asleep on the way there and was super tired, so I just kept her in the Moby and she was so content to just snuggle.  I didn’t mind at all!
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Like seriously, can you stop growing up already?!?
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Bekkett, being the mischievous boy that he is, didn’t want to eat lunch with us, so he went and started hawling around the different gourds and pumpkins.  At one point, Greg said, “He isn’t my son.”  And then all of a sudden, a woman came walking over and I said, “He is YOUR son!”  So, he got up and went and took care of it.  We hadn’t even noticed how many pumpkins and gourds he had moved around while we were stuffing our faces, but the lady said, “Oh he’s allright, we just didn’t want him to get hurt.”  Haha!  RIGHT!
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My cute kids are growing up WAYYYYY too fast!
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You think they look alike??  Geezo peezo, Des looks like her brother!  At Grandad’s apples, we got a pumpkin for each of the kiddos and then we got a dozen apple cider donuts and an apple cider slush.  YUMMO!!!  I am so glad Greg got a dozen when he was leaving on the trail today…NOT!  Oh, so tempting!!!

The cute little girl was tuckered out by the time we left the orchards and pumpkin patches and this is how we found her when we got home…I love that her little tongue is sticking out.  She is darling, if I do say so myself!
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After naps, the kids played and Greg prepared the pizza crust so that it could raise while we went to the park.
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And when did she grow up?  These pictures are just freaking me out a little bit!  She is just too big!  I can’t believe how time flies!  She is still supposed to be a baby!  And this picture shows that she is NOT a baby anymore!! 😦
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One lady at the park said, “Now that is the cutest baby I have EVER seen!”  Yes, ma’am, I would have to agree!

And to finish off the night, homemade pizza {Mellow Mushroom crust, half white and half wheat, for those of you that have been}, chicken and pineapple sausages, artichoke hearts, fresh basil, mozzarella and Parmesan cheese, with fresh tomatoes on top.  It was DELISH!  The best that we have ever made at home, for sure!
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nd now, G is on the trail for another week.  We will see what adventures we happen upon this week!  I will keep you updated!

-M.

Desi Rae’s Birth Story

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Well, it has been 5 months and I finally feel like I can finally post her birth story.  There were times when I would read it and I didn’t feel emotionally ready to post about it.  She is such a special girl and we are so grateful for the joy she has brought into our family.  

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Desi’s story

I can’t believe it has been 2 full weeks since Desi Rae was born and changed our lives, forever.  Time flies!  And I am not ok with it.  I needed to sit down and write her story before the details left me.  First of all, I want to start out at the 8 weeks pregnant part of my life.  When we were about 8 weeks pregnant, we thought I had miscarried.  The 3 weeks following were quite trying, as I was devastated that I wouldn’t be privileged to have a little miracle entering our lives April 2013.  Luckily I had Bekkett to keep me distracted and happy.  He kept me going most days.  One day, he was sitting at the counter eating lunch or dinner and the song “1000 years” by Christina Parry came on.  I looked at him feeling so lucky to at least have him, but I had an overwhelming feeling that the baby I had “lost” was a girl and that the timing just wasn’t right.  I thought, whether she just wasn’t ready to come to this earth yet, or maybe we weren’t ready to receive her, I didn’t know.  But, as we found out that I was, in fact, still pregnant, I knew we were going to be privileged to welcome a beautiful baby girl into our family.  You can read about that time HERE.

Now, to the details.  On April 10, 2013, contractions started around 3:00 PM.  In the beginning, they were only 6-7 minutes apart and then as time went on, they spread out to about 10 minutes apart.  Greg was at work and I didn’t tell him until he came home for dinner because I didn’t want him to get too excited, if they were just going to stop.  Once they stopped around 8 PM, we were pretty disappointed, but we were excited for our doctor appointment the next day. 

Doctor Olsen checked me and told me he would not be surprised if the baby came soon.  We went home to take some family pictures/maternity pictures and that is when the contractions started, 4 minutes apart.  Doctor Olsen said to come in at 4-5 minutes apart, so we called my mom to have her come and take care of Bekkett and we ended up back at the hospital before lunch. 

The process was pretty slick this time.  I had my epidural before noon, the contractions slowed down, I was put on the pit, and my body started moving.  My nurse was awesome and gave Greg and I time to ourselves, which was great.  My body went to work.  At 3:45, I was at a 6 or so and she asked if I could feel pressure on my pelvis yet, but at that time I couldn’t.  By the time she came back in about 15 minutes later, I could totally feel the pressure and she started getting the room ready for delivery.  Greg and I were talking about how we hadn’t had an ultrasound since 20 weeks and we felt like we were going to be totally surprised by what baby girl looked like, if she had hair, etc.  With Bekkett, he was always running big, so we had 2 or 3 ultrasounds in the last couple of months, so it seemed like we kind of knew what he might look like.  She checked me again and said, “Well, baby girl has hair…just for fun, give a little push… OK STOP, let’s let the doctor get up here so he can deliver the baby, since he’s the one who gets paid for it.” 

Dr. Olsen got there and he once we were ready, he said, “I bet this will be a 2 push baby.”  I pushed twice and she was here in her miraculous glory.  Her little cry was just darling as ever.  He was able to put her on my belly to have her cleaned off and for Greg to cut the cord, which they weren’t able to do with Bekkett, so that was a really special experience.  Of course, I was in love from the second I saw her and heard her cry!  She only cried for maybe 15 seconds and then from then on, she was seriously so chill, just looking around, checking out what was going on.  She was 7 lb. 10 oz. and 21 in. long…same length, only 2 whole pounds smaller than Bekkett.  Once they had her all wrapped up, etc. they brought her over to me and I was in love. 

Luckily I had her to distract me.  We ran into some complications with delivering the placenta.  For some reason, my placenta had attached to the uterine muscle (placenta accreta) and he couldn’t get it all to detach.  He ended up having to scrape my whole uterus out, like he was performing a D&C.  Then, once he finally got it all out, I was losing too much blood too fast.  They were giving me meds like crazy to try and get my blood to clot, but nothing was working.  They tried a balloon procedure that didn’t work because my uterus just contracted the balloon back out again.  It got pretty intense there for a while, but luckily my body finally reacted to the drugs and the bleeding slowed down.  Like I said, I was grateful that I had Desi Rae because it gave me something WONDERFUL to be distracted with. 

I am so grateful that I was blessed with this princess and that everything turned out fine in the end with the delivery.  I pray that our Spiritual connection will be more powerful than even our physical connection.  I know there will be very hard days when we don’t see eye to eye, when I will feel like she hates me, etc.  But, I pray, like I said, that our Spiritual connection will always supersede the physical connection that we have.

My family is my everything!  Now we have one more darling person to be grateful for and love every day!   

-M.

 

 

Hiccups.

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Today, because of TimeHop on my phone, I realized it had been one year since I thought I had miscarried Des.  It brought back a flood of emotions, but made me count my blessings of having her here, safe and WHOLE!  I was worried that she might have some complications because of my complications carrying her, but I am grateful for her safety and her health!  God truly is good to us.  

Having said that, it doesn’t mean that hiccups don’t come.  Most of you know that we have been trying to sell Greg’s car for months now.  After putting over $600 into it, unexpectedly, we ended up only getting $900 out of it, when we were hoping to get about $2000 or so.  BUT, we DID get it sold, finally! 🙂

Well, we have also been trying to sell the scooter, and the bikes, just toys that we don’t use anymore, etc.  We took the scooter up to a little lot where everyone parks cars and motorcycles, etc. to try and sell them.  We have had it there for about a month and have had a couple of calls on it.  A lady called yesterday about it, and called again today to meet me up there with her mechanic and so she could test drive it.  I had a feeling to go and make sure it started before she was going to get there.  When I got there, I went to put the key in and to turn it on and it just felt like the key was jammed.  I checked to make sure it was the right key{and it was} and it would barely turn to the ignition part and when I tried to turn it on, there was nothing.  It was super sketch, because I have never had it do anything like that to me in the past.  I swear someone has jacked with it and now it is all messed up.  It is just super discouraging.  It would be nice to have that financial cushion, or put it toward our car payment, but it’s ok.  We will check it out when Greg gets back off of the trail and see what we need to do to get it taken care of.  

I am grateful for hiccups, because they do make me stronger.  I just need to continue with a PMA like my momma taught me!  

-M.

The week in photos.

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I don’t know if you know my kids, but they are pretty freaking cute.  I take lots of pics of them.  And videos.(Wish I could post those, too.)  So, I thought I would share a sampling of the photos I have taken of them this week.  
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Some days the kiddos nap at the same time, some days, they alternate and I get one on one time with each of them.  I am equally grateful for each, but I really do love getting to play with each of them individually. That one on one time is priceless and I am grateful for it.
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Really safe, I know.  Bekkett was give Des a “pack pack” aka a piggy back. He thought it was so funny.  As did sis.  And mom.  Desi is actually starting to scoot around on the walker.  It is unbelievable to me that she is already so big!  Time has flown since she was born.  
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This little cheeser did these two bigger puzzles with me the other day.  I had to help him quite a bit, but I was so impressed with his patience and that he stayed with me throughout the whole thing.  And, for a while there, he decided he was never going to smile for pictures.  Glad he is back to “cheese”ing it for the camera.  That happy smile just makes my day!  
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 got together with a couple of friends to do a craft.  It had been a LONG time since I had crafted and I loved it!  It made me miss my sissy and our crafting days, but I am grateful to have found friends to be able to do that with here.  
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God knows how to make my day.  Just look at that masterpiece.  

SILLY PHOTO SHOOTS WITH THE KIDDOS

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Don’t mind the no-makeup/I-need-a-haircut-BADLY look I’ve got going on…Just focus on the cute kid I am lucky to be psing with! 🙂 I love the ones of him trying to make faces!  He is at such a fun age.  I just love him!  
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es has started eating rice cereal and the first couple times we tried to feed it to her, she gagged on it.  Bekkett chowed it down, but she has had a little bit of a different time with it.  She is finally starting to swallow after daily practice with her, but really it has only taken her about a week to get it.  She is still messy, as you can see in the picture, but at least she is a cute mess.  Bekkett always suggests that we feed “baby ice” during meal times.  It is amazing how much these two love each other!  Bekkett always wants to know where baby is, and when he gets to see her{when she just wakes up in the mornings or from naps} he gets SO excited and they just smile and laugh at each other.  I LOVE to watch them interact!  Priceless mommy moments!
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Bekkett found daddy’s legos, which I am sure that Greg is going to be THRILLED about, because then he is going to think that he has every reason to start buying legos “for Bekkett” {Which I am secretly OK with, but don’t tell him that} 😉

Anyways, that is a bit of a catch up of life in the Ostler family this week.  Hope you enjoy.

-M.