Days like today.


When days like today happen, I have to blog about it.  For some reason, it seems like the past month has been SUPER challenging with Bekkett, but today was amazing!  And I have lots of pictures to prove it.  We didn’t even do anything too spectacular, but he was just a sweetheart, and we were able to spend a lot of time doing things HE wanted to do today and it was so nice!

Here is how the day started:

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Even though the D.A.M.N. dump truck woke Bekkett up at 6:40 this morning, it turned out to be a great day! 

A nice long walk for mama, and then a walk around the neighborhood so that Bekkett could ride his bike and watch the planes.  Living close to the airport + 2 year old boy = hours of outdoor entertainment.  He always says to me, “Mama, bik(big) pyane(plane).”  He is starting to talk so much more and it is adorable!  Image

Cute little man, his bike, and his shadow.  


When we got home from walks and bike rides, we had a little snack.  Bekkett found the fruit loops, randomly, and wanted them in a bowl.  So we headed outside to watch planes, play in the rainwater in his pool, and relax a bit.  He was obsessed with looking at himself in the reflection.  He is FINALLY starting to really realize that it is him.  He also recognizes himself in pictures and I will ask him who it is and he will say, “Bekkeh”.  Super cute!



After naps, he came and snuggled with me.  And I caught a pic of him snuggling me.  And then he realized I had taken a photo and wanted to smile with me.  




Gosh, I love him!  Image 

And this is the aftermath of him playing dress up in my closet.  He even had that hot pink sports bra that is in that drawer on his head.  Wish I could have captured that one! 🙂  And then while waiting for baby sis to wake up so we could go to Auntie SueSue and Auntie Graham’s for dinner, we played with his animals…for almost an hour.  I loved helping him set each animal out and helping him say what each animal is CALLED instead of making the sounds of each animal.  He is sounding out words so well and learning so fast.  I love to see the wheels in his little head turn as he continues to learn to speak.



I feel like he looks like such a big boy in this photo.  

I was texting Shandi today and telling her how good of a day it had been and said, “If only every day were like this.”  She made the point that if all days were like this, then I wouldn’t appreciate them as much.  And it is true.  An eternal principle of opposition in all things!  

I count my blessings today!








I saw this on FaceBook today and loved it.  Wanted to share.  I need an inspiration wall where I post things like this.. 🙂 Maybe I will put Greg on that while I am gone in Minneapolis.  


5 things I am grateful for.


I am very grateful for many things today:

1: Jesus Christ and His atonement.  Last week I spoke in sacrament meeting about enduring to the end.  Through His atonement, I can try my best each day, and when I feel like I have failed, I go to bed and start a new day, because of Him.

2: Second, third, fourth, fifth….hundredth chances.  

3: Loving and easily forgiving children.  May I be more like them.  

4: Angel friends who listen to promptings from the Spirit and drop by just before bedtime with cookies.  I bawled like a baby, but it made me realize that I am not alone out here!  I am truly grateful for that!  

5: Knowing that Heavenly Father watches out for His children and He puts us in one another’s lives to help us get through the good and the bad!  May I try and be someone else’s angel friend…I have had so many bless me.


A bit of humor.


Do you ever find yourself in situations thinking, “My life is ridiculous!!!”  I have.  Tonight, in fact.  We went to walk the dogs and Bekkett has been BEGGING me to let him ride his bike while we take the dogs.  Greg and I had let him in the past, but that was with Greg there to help me control things a bit.  But with me only have 2 hands, pushing the stroller with 2 kids AND 2 horses, I mean, dogs, I didn’t want to throw another aspect into it to complicate things.  After all, every person I would walk by would say, “Wow!  Have you got your hands full!”  I would make a fake chuckle and say, “Haha…well, good thing I am just the dog walker…haha……”  

Well, I wanted Bekkett to be able to ride his bike, so I figured that if I had Desi in the moby, I could hold both dogs with one hand and then still have the other hand available JUST IN CASE Bekkett couldn’t make it all the way and I had to carry the bike.  He had done so well while Greg was home, I didn’t figure that would happen, but I had to be prepared.  

He did really well all the way down, then not even 1/4 the way up, he decides he is done with the bike.  Then about 10 steps later, he has a royal fit and sits down in the middle of the walking trail.  No matter what I did to try and coax him to come, he stays sitting there, screaming “NOOOOOOO!”  I start walking away with the dogs in one hand, the bike in the other and Desi strapped to me.  I turned around and he is still sitting there.  I just had to document it, so I took this picture.  Image Yes, he is the TINY red dot in the middle of the walking trail.  And as I took that photo, I thought to myself, “If only I had a personal photographer to take photos of the ridiculous moments of my life.”  Well, since I don’t have one of those photographers, I decided to take a mental photo and try and draw a depiction of what I probably looked like.  Here you go.  Image

I am thrilled that in this moment, I actually drew a cartoon of it and can actually KIND OF laugh about it right now, because at the moment, I was NOT laughing about it.  I seriously had to drag that bike back to the house, besides the fact I had to coax him along and it probably took us 3 times as long to get back as it did to get there.  

I really wonder what people thought as they drove by this ridiculous situation.  Well, who cares what they thought.  Here are the things that I learned from it:  A: NEVER try that again, and B: NEVER try that again.  (At least on my own…)  

I cried for about an hour after I finally got this kids down, feeling really sorry for myself and my situation.  Then, Kelly Clarkson’s song comes into my head, “WHAT DOESN’T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER!”  And I am REALLY glad that that didn’t kill me today!  

So, I would like to announce that I STILL love my life, even though sometimes I wonder what Heavenly Father is trying to teach me with a bike and 2 dogs in my hands, a baby strapped to me, and a toddler sitting in the middle of the walking path, screaming.  He is probably just thinking to Himself, “You see what I have had to put up with from you!”  May I learn my lessons, and may you get a good laugh out of it. 




Tonight as I was getting Bekkett ready for bed, I was REALLY not in the mood to read books to him.  For some reason, I had been really emotional tonight and I just really wanted to get the kids to bed.  Bekkett kept asking for “one more book, one more book”, so I gave in.  He opened his drawer and immediately pointed to “On the Night You Were Born” by Nancy Tillman.


(You can’t really look inside 😉

On the night you were born,
The moon smiled with such wonder
That the stars peeked in to see you
And the night wind whispered,
“Life will never be the same.”
Because there had never been anyone like you…ever in the world.
So enchanted with you were the wind and the rain
That they whispered the sound of your wonderful name.
It sailed through the farmland
High on the breeze…
Over the ocean…
And through the trees…
Until everyone heard it
And everyone knew
Of the one and only ever you.
Not once had there been such eyes,
Such a nose,
Such silly, wiggly, wonderful toes.
When the polar bears heard,
They danced until dawn.
From faraway places,
The geese flew home.
The moon stayed up until
Morning next day.
And none of the ladybugs flew away.
So whenever you doubt just how special you are
And you wonder who loves you, how much and how far,
Listen for geese honking high in the sky.
(They’re singing a song to remember you by.)
Or notice the bears asleep at the zoo.
(It’s because they’ve been dancing all night for you!)
Or drift off to sleep to the sound of the wind.
(Listen closely…it’s whispering your name again!)
If the moon stays up until morning one day,
Or a ladybug lands and decides to stay,
Or a little bird sits at your window awhile,
It’s because they’re all hoping to see you smile…
For never before in story or rhyme
(not even once upon a time)
Has the world ever known a you, my friend,
And it never will, not ever again…
Heaven blew every trumpet
And played every horn
On the wonderful, marvelous
Night you were born.

I LOVE these books by Nancy Tillman and more often than not, they make me cry.  I started reading it and Bekkett started playing around, but I just kept reading.  As I got to about the middle of the book, tears started streaming down my face, but he couldn’t hear me crying.  

He looked at me and saw me crying, sat down by me, linked my arm in his and laid his head on my arm.  As the book went on, and my tears continued to come, he looked up and me and then kissed my arm.  

It is moments like these that make EVERY hard minute in the day worth it.  It also made me realize that if only I would sit down on his level and do what he wants me to do more often, I would have more fulfilling and joyful days.  He is truly full of joy and I want to be like him.  Sometimes I forget.  But, I am truly grateful that there is only one and only EVER Bekkett Paul Ostler and that he is mine.  I am truly blessed to be called his mommy.  May I try each day to be a better one for him AND Desi.  


Sunday bliss.


Have you ever had one of those moments where you just want to stop time and live in it forever?  Sunday was one of those moments.  We had gotten home from church and had eaten lunch together.  It was almost time for nap times but Bekkett wanted a little snack.  I was sitting on the stairs with Des and Bekkett came to sit by me.  Greg brought some blueberries over and sat on the floor in front of us all.  

If you know Greg, you know that he is a CHAMP at throwing food in the air and catching it in his mouth.  He loves to do it for Bekkett because in return, Bekkett pretends to throw it up int he air and then put it straight into his mouth.  We were sitting there and all of a sudden, Greg throws a berry up against the wall BEHIND him and proceeds to catch it in his mouth in front of him.  We were all laughing so hard and Desi was watching Bekkett laugh and she started laughing out loud, too.  It was the cutest thing and none of us could stop laughing and smiling.  

Once we all calmed down, I let my face relax and my cheeks literally HURT because I had been laughing so hard and smiling so much.  At one point, I thought “I need to be recording this.”  And then, I thought of the advice I once received {from a photographer} to LIVE IN THE MOMENT.  Sometimes, even a camera won’t do it justice, but we can take a mental picture(from The Office) and remember these times ALWAYS.  

Times like these I count my blessings and truly know that I am the luckiest.  I saw this article yesterday and I have read multiple articles by “Hands Free Mama”.  These articles always make me want to be a better mama.  I will let you know how my journey goes.  



My goal is to seize the moment every day and find things to be grateful for on this journey.  


{Desi’s newborn photo shoot}


I realized today that I had never posted Desi’s birth story nor her photo shoot.  I didn’t realize why I hadn’t posted her birth story until I re read it.  I still don’t feel like I am ready to post that yet.  But, I want to post her photo shoot, A: because she is darling and B: her 3 month birthday was this week.  What better week to do it? 😉ImageImageImageImageImageImageImageImage